Snails.

Today was an all around rough day. Just one of those days that make you say, WAIT, I'm a human too! I've got them things called rights!!

Do you ever feel like you are too small to do anything yet your ego is so big you can't even fit through the door?
Or like you've lost all reason to fight yet you have too many fights to fight?


"You're blessed when you feel like you've lost what is most dear to you. 
Only then, ONLY THEN, can you be embraced by the One most dear to you. "
Note that Jesus never said the One who SHOULD be most dear to you. There is no longer a question about it. He is most dear to you. End of story. 
That means even at the end of the day when all you want to do is cry in your room because most people make you feel like the worst person in the whole world. 
WHAT ABOUT JUSTIN BIEBER?! HUH! ATTACK HIM A LITTLE! 


I have enough problems. 
I have enough people to worry about. 
Don't attack me cause then I feel like I have to take time out to protect myself and thats just not worth it. 


Its funny when you walk into something completely unaware what God is about to do but THEN, it happens. You get something you didn't expect. You are reminded right off the bat that you are loved. by the One most dear to ME  something that just blows your mind huh? 


Today was a day that I went into defense mode, sometimes that's the worst thing you could possible do. It's the worst thing I could do. 


And mothersenses? Okay, I like those most of the time, but seriously. In the middle of worship and you know your person is in trouble so you turn around and see a woman all up on your man and thats not it, that is uncomfortable and makes you cry but it doesn't do it. So you turn back around and you see him, your insides ring out to protect the weak. you can't focus, you can't shut your eyes, you gotta watch his every move. You don't know what he'll do when. That's a tragic feeling that I hope I never feel again. 
I won't let people hurt my people. It's just not allowed. period.