I'm currently awkwardly sitting in a room listening while my boyfriend's mother rips him a new one.

"Oh man! That's a steal!"

Today, I had the wonderful privilege to hang out with Kalah. She is wonderful, completely. Inside and out. The best.

We needed to go get stuff for the Wonder Tour and we are walking down the aisle in The Market for the third time and we are taking about what a wonderful honor it is to be on the leadership side of Wonder Tour this year and we are both beaming and we looked at each other and cracked up. (That might of been one of my favorite parts). Then after our before trip meeting she asked me to get directions to U.S. Toy, (we needed prizes), and I got the wrong address, (CRAP! Way to look like an idiot!) but when we got to the headquarters and realized that we were in the wrong place she just started laughing, there wasn't a frustrated bone in her body. She was completely filled with joy even after we had gone to the wrong one and wasted a good 20 minutes. She was completely joyful, I was surprised to watch as she remained that way ALL DAY, that is something.
I've never looked up to a woman as much as I look up to Kalah Sipp. (Except for maybe my mother)
and I'm pretty sure we make one of the best teams ever.

When I came home, after a 8-6 day, I was pretty tired to say the very least.
The mother made dinner (my favorite! grilled chicken!!), and then, much to my wonderful surprise we had "Family Chore time" Which is possibly one of my favorite things ever. I love having a clean house and hadn't had one in days.
Then we went upstairs together, and tried to order my school for next year. (I get to stay at home and will start college classes next fall, welp, that's the plan right now anyways. I think I need to save up a little bit, I don't need to put my mother in debt) and we had paperwork we were going to go over but she got too tired so here I am, blogging. Completely relaxed (which is causing the rambling) and completely filled with the Lord's joy. I have tons of work to do tomorrow, but that's tomorrow, I can't do anything about it today. The mistakes I made today won't matter tomorrow or in 5 minutes because I won't be able to change them. So, I'm just gonna live.
Tomorrow I have a Lost date with the world's greatest boyfriend, and I get to spend more time with Kalah, and it's just gonna be great.

Join if you remember eating this bad boy

Blogger friends, 

Be on the lookout. I lost the keys, again.

What a freaking fail. I'm so frustrated about it. Well that and many other things, its just been one of those lovely weeks. 

Plus, my editor is being funky. SWANK! Gosh! 

Currently listening to She & Him. Love them to pieces. 

I finally got my glasses back! Those things are boy magnets, I can't decide if thats good or bad. 

I'll have to vote on that, someday. 

I'm overly stressed and under... idk.. i was gonna say loved, cause that's how I'm been feeling lately, but feelings lie. I'm hoping to be home before everyone else tonight so I can clean my nasty house, maybe the Aliens will bring back my keys. 

I need a good long week with no people, or work, or phones, or houses to clean. 

Just me. 

Psh, that would last like a day. 

Haha. 

Don't you just love those moments that remind you of all the other awful moments that have happened to you? Yepp, me too. Big fan. 

And then you talk about it and nothing good comes from it. You just get that look (you know the ONE), and you know to back off or you might get left and that is so terrible. Oh, I'm sorry, you didn't like my sarcasm? Welp, suck it. 

It should be completely okay for me to not like people. If it isn't with you, you are clearly in the wrong county, people here are brutal. Watch it. 

100th post

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Welp, I've been putting off blogging because I knew that it needed to be a good one, I mean one hundred posts! Its gotta be good.



I really really really want a old vintage bike. Like REAL bad.
I know, I know, its just another thing that I want and don't really need. But I never had my own bike and that's a little sad.

Something a little like this.
I really want my bike to come from Goodwill.
I don't really know why, I just do.
I'm full of odd wants today.

What life has looked like lately...

Lots and lots of this :) 

In all conclusion, my life is the best. 

  Be jealous.You should be. 

Haha :) man. I'm a big fan of Noah and Jackson today, as always.

Oh snap.

Well, I seem to have a problem.
I installed my schoolwork onto my laptop like I was told to do... then proceeded to do three days of work.
I think I've been bored.
7 Lessons and 1 quiz and I'm completely done with this week's school and its barely Sunday.
I am skilled.

I'm not sure I'm cut out for this line of work

I sat in the living room of the people I babysat for and listened to their 9 year old cry herself to sleep. All she wanted was her mom, and as hard as I tried I couldn't give that to her at the moment. Her mom was going to be home in a hour and it was already way past her bedtime, but I could feel my heart break for this child as she sobbed in her room for her mother.

The past is a funny thing, I never once said "Oh! This will be fun for now, but in 8 months this will be my past and this will haunt me everytime fate allows." Nope. Never.

Today was one of those awful days that everywhere I went I had a flashback of something like that.
It wasn't good.
Every flashback that happens just happens to be related to fear. That's totally normal right?! Right.

Forgotten.
Alone.
Afraid.
Wanting someone to comfort me.

Well, dear child, once again as you face that moment in time. No one is there. You can't change it.
When people hurt you or annoy you they will always resemble someone that once "loved" you.

"And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys."